Thursday, December 31, 2009
Fumbling in the Candle Light
I think that I sometimes get so worried over form, I fumble with the actual intent part, which we all know matters more than form! I keep telling myself that with experience will come ease with rituals. I know that I need to keep fumbling through these rituals so that I can learn how to get better. This is also proving to be true within my coven. We are five women coming together from all aspects of life. I am the only actual new witch, the least experienced. Sometimes I like being a clean slate, so I may learn from everyone else. Other times I would enjoy not slowing down the whole group because I have never done anything before.
Sometimes it can be so much fun discovering all of this Pagan stuff for the first time. I love feeling like my whole view of the world has changed with each new tidbit. I love finally having a proper explanation for things that I have always thought or felt. I love feeling like I finally belong, like I finally believe in something. So many years being cornered by Christian folks and even Islam people, they always assumed I was either like them or I believed in nothing. It was too difficult to explain what I did believe in, so I left them uncorrected. But now I feel like I can easily define my beliefs and even know people who feel the same! It is just amazing some days.
I heard a band yesterday on another gal's blog and I fell in love with them! The band is called Emerald Rose, have you heard about them? Wow I just love their style and lyrics! If you visit their site they have some sample songs and a lyrics page. They are from Georgia but are considered Irish Folk Rock in genre, I think. You can check them out on You Tube to see some of their other songs. Among my favorites are: Pagan Girl, Fire in the Head, Merry May Folk, Santa Claus is Pagan, Loch Lomond (Irish Classic). You really should check them out if you haven't yet, they are just wonderful!
I hope that this New Year's Eve is finding you all happily and ready for the new year ahead. I hope your Blue Moon goes along magickally and may the divine continue to surprise us all!