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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Hail Little Inner Witches!

I have been a good witch and meditated for two days in a row! I know that is not such an accomplishment but I need to give positive reinforcement to my "little witch" inside. Good girl, good girl. *pets little inner witch*

As mentioned in prior posts, I have been working on finding a spirit guide. I know that they are always there, that was not the issue. Trying to connect with them with little to no experience even meditating can prove to be a tad difficult. I have met a spirit guide or imaginary friend, either way she is helpful. Her name is Magdelena. She has long flowing wavy blond hair and dark blue robes. I have no idea whether or not I am merely imagining her or actually connecting with a spirit. I would like to believe that it is the latter. She seems motherly in giving me advice. When we touch I feel this warmth, like liquid love flowing through me. The first time we met I kept hugging her because it felt so nice. What do you think, have I met a spirit guide or imaginary friend?

Even if she is an imaginary friend, she is a much wiser version of myself. Someone who can look past all of the angst in my life and give it to me straight. I feel a motherly vibe from her because I have always lacked a loving mother as my own always told me she hated me and left when I was 7. Two step-mothers later left me feeling worse. I feel loved and safe with Magdelena, imaginary or ethereal it makes no difference to me. Finding peace and revelations is what meditation is all about right?

On a side "mommy" note, Bear is great at pretending (as was I). She has this stuffed elephant that she calls, "Ellowant" or "Ellie" for short. She makes up so many different scenarios and tells us all about them in her broken two year old speech. She has even gone as far to say "Ellowant pulled my hair!" and "Ellowant pooped all over! He's stinky! I gonna clean Ellowant all up." and the ever popular, "Ellowant bumped his noggin! I kiss it make it all better!" She is so hilarious to listen to sometimes. She used to breastfeed her Elephant too, after seeing me feed her infant brother.

I bring all of this up because I keep thinking how connected we are in this path to our childhoods. All of that imagination that was squashed as we reached junior high (or earlier) that we painstakingly have to build back up to gain the power of imagination and visualization. I am not going to be the one to burst my little ones' bubbles. I have never wanted to lie to them about anything, like Santa Claus. I have always thought of explaining it to them as a legend to believe in. Something fun to do in honor of someone who was so nice all of those years ago.

Anyway I am glad that my daughter has an amazing imagination. She spurs me to delve back into mine again. May you all pay attention and encourage your "little inner witches" and to all a good night!

1 comment:

Bridgett said...

I think it's a real shame we lose the imaginations of our childhood. ::sigh::

And I absolutely think you've found a spirit guide in Magdalena. Good for you!